I am craving him. Craving his presence.
I am David in the wilderness, panting after him as a deer pants after water.
I am seeing him at a distance, just past the tree line.
I am seeking I am.

 Being married is difficult. It's wonderful and brilliant but very difficult. It is so new. It's is strange to have to meld completely with another person. Nothing is your own anymore. Your money, your time, your food, your body -- it is all his as much as it's mine. Its getting easier as the months pass but I find myself frightened sometimes by what I think his reaction will be to some of my actions... and yet he always responds with patience and gentle rebuke when I am in the wrong. He never raises his voice. I am blessed. We are becoming one. I love that we waited to have sex. These past months have been hilarious learning each other's bodies. He's beautifully and wonderfully made. I smile at the intimacy of him looking me over and being shocked at my makeup - the innocence and curiosity mixed with a strong desire makes me want him all the more. Honestly? We still fall into giggling fits after our sack sessions... it's the best! He's the best... whoever said they were worried that the sex might be bad... psh... you don't even know! We're growing with Jesus too - struggling to find our place in the world of Christian systematics and trying to get away from our fear of man issues. Slowly but surely we're getting our footing and making amends with the people who have deeply hurt us and whom we have hurt. This entry sounds so deep... why the hell do I write this way on here? I think its because its almost 1:30 am and I'm sitting on my balcony listening to those bugs that chirp like crazy and they make me nostalgic... anyways! Wedding photos are on facebook... going to bed =)

I have returned from the great abyss that is not having the internet!
So excited to be back online so I can reconnect with folks in Windsor and England... It was like living in a cave I swear... and it didn't help matters that I didn't have TV either...

Anyways - gotta get ready for work. New job = RW & Co... worst...
Be blessed!

Getting married in two more sleeps! YIKES!
I can't believe its here!

I GET MARRIED IN A MONTH! YAY!

I am packing my life in to boxes. Everything since I was five has been in this house. It's all in boxes. All are marked fragile. There are books and albums. There are drawings and paintings. There are stuffed animals that will never leave my bedside wherever that may be. One month and this will no longer be my home. It's a bitter sweet life to give up my childhood for a husband. My husband... 

 Goodbye Facebook, we had good times.  Alas, you and I spend an unhealthy amount of time together, so its time to end this. I don't think we should even try to be friends after this, its over, I can't see you anymore.

Happy Christmas!
Happy Birthday Jesus!!